09/02/2026
I used to have a horse, one set of tack that had always been around, and zero fear.
I just got on and rode.
No worries about potential dangers, no questioning soundness, didn’t even contemplate if my tack fit properly (it didn’t) or wonder if there was any more I could or should be doing.
I just rode because I truly loved it.
I spent hours teaching tricks, creating connections, riding through the pastures and ditches, dreaming about one day doing more..
Then, as time went on, I learned more and more about every aspect of horse care and riding.
I realized my feed program was lacking.
My horses needed regular dentals and a better farrier.
My poor fitting tack was probably why my mare was so crusty.
The bit I had been using for years got thrown in the trash.
I took lessons and started working harder on myself and how I could better support my horses.
I had a few incidents that caused me to see more dangers and not be so w***y nilly.
It was all for the better.
Until it got to the point that I found a new rabbit hole to go down every other day..
Analyzing all the different feeds and ingredients.
Unable to watch an event without seeing sore horses everywhere.
Obsessing over how much exercise my horses get before they haul anywhere.
Seeing the tiniest changes in my horse’s behaviour and thinking of every possible scenario as to why.
Accidents and injuries that make me see dangers absolutely everywhere.
It is a training hole or a vet issue?
Does my horse need x,y,or z supplements.
Troubles trusting my horse is truly sound
Seeing a worried eye in a photo and wondering if it’s due to pain or anxiety
Picking apart every little bit of my riding
It goes on and on and on.
Don’t get me wrong, I still find the magic in horses every single day.
But the more I learn, the more I see, and the harder it is to truly live in the moment and not second guess it all.
Every day, I’m torn between wanting to go back to my blissful ignorance.. and then feeling guilty I’m not doing more and craving more knowledge.
It’s a slippery slope and hard to find the place in between.
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