08/02/2026
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Today has been an absolute nightmare. I’m shattered by the losses of kittens. Just completely broken. And then I read this post by the kitten lady & realize that even the most renowned kitten rescue person on earth is going through the same things & feeling the same feelings. I’m still broken. But I’m not alone.
I’ve been a little quiet here because this has been an extremely sad week of losses. I try to keep this a happy space, so I often don’t share challenges until I’m confident they will go our way. Every so often, they do not. We took in a litter of preemie kittens this week and in spite of sleepless nights, long hospital hours and lots of critical care, they did not survive. I am really heartbroken.
We also took in the baby pictured here, a 6 day old named Esteban. He’s having some issues too, but is hanging in there. I’m sharing so you can root for him and for us. We need a win.
For me, loss doesn’t get easier, it just changes shape. I used to cry over losses because I felt guilty that maybe there was something more I could have done for the individual baby. Now my tears are a much more complicated blend of anger, sadness and disappointment—with the state of veterinary medicine and the animal welfare industry—and with myself for not yet achieving the very ridiculous self-imposed expectation that I am somehow going to fix it all. That neonatal kittens remain such a blind spot, so de-prioritized, so hopeless at every level of animal welfare, is a disappointment that reaches far beyond my sadness about any one case. It’s a feeling of genuine distress that the world is not changing as quickly as kittens deserve, and that I am powerless to speed it along.
I know that we are achieving amazing progress. Orphan Kitten Club has impacted 250,000 kittens. We are funding groundbreaking research about kitten mortality, training shelter professionals in kitten lifesaving, and saving vulnerable lives from coast to coast. I see the transformations that take place in my own two hands and am overcome with hope for what is possible. Some days I am moved to tears by all we are accomplishing. Other days I am reminded of how far we still have to go.
My feelings are too complicated for a social media, and I don’t even know if people read long text anymore in this attention economy. So I will just whisper a thank you to anyone out there who reads this and gets it, and who is working to improve neonatal welfare too. They need us to see them and to build the better world they deserve.