10/11/2026
This morning, I took a tumble off of Cirrus - it was my first fall in six years, the last being on the disastrous morning of our first trail ride where he bucked me off in a rocky parking lot and took off over the hills. Thankfully, this was not that!
Let me start by saying I am unhurt! I think it was a combination of soft ground and the fact that I’ve been doing a lot of intentional tumbling with Remi lately. When I was in the air, seeing my feet and the sky, my instinct was to tuck and roll - and that’s exactly what played out.
So, what happened?
We were out in our front field and Cirrus picked up his left lead canter. His left lead is not as balanced in ridden work - I could feel it, but also decided to let him carry it forwards because he’d chosen it on his own. Very quickly he picked up speed (perhaps, initially, trying to find his balance) and my body locked down a little, curled inwards, and shifted my weight forwards.
He responded with a FAST deceleration, including a handful of hops - I was with him at first, but at some point I zigged while he zagged. Cue the fall.
Cirrus stood by while I dusted myself off and we started walking back to the round pen - but very deliberately he began placing me in riding position behind his shoulder. I’m not a “get right back on” rider, but today I did make the decision to hop aboard again.
After our previous conversation ending in me becoming airborne, I became cautiously curious - and realized Cirrus was asking me to stop over anticipating with both my mind and body. Oh, I wish I had been able to feel into this before! I think he’s been asking this of me for a long, long time and I just wasn’t hearing it. Three times in a row we were able to lightly pick up and set down the left lead canter.
Now I’m not going to sit here and say I’m glad this happened or that this is what I needed in order to learn this lesson. I’m also not going to make light of it, and write off the event like “this is just part of riding horses” (even if it is). Falling is no joke.
AND-
I did fall.
I did have a lightbulb moment.
I did come away with a better understanding of my horse, and myself.
Message received, buddy 🧡