08/11/2026
I don’t think I ever truly grasped how a man becomes his environment. I’d heard it said, nodded at it, observed it briefly and moved on. That was foolish of me, and shortsighted. It took the last year and a half up here to teach me what it means.
I’ve been carving this life out of hardwood. Not soft pine that gives under the blade, but the kind of wood that blunts your tools, splits your knuckles and makes you earn every curve. What nobody tells you is that while you’re shaping the wood, the wood is shaping you. Every cut takes something from your hands and gives them something back.
I know, with absolute certainty, that the man I was five years ago could not have done this. He would not have lasted out here. Life arrives exactly on time; God knows that better than we do. Perhaps it’s age. Perhaps it’s coming into a truer kind of manhood. I’m not sure. But I have changed, deeply, and I know there is more change still to come.
I expected the inner change. You don’t live this close to the mountains, the dogs and the solitude without your mind and spirit being rearranged, sometimes abruptly, sometimes quietly. What I didn’t expect was the body.
I’ve trained hard most of my life. Now, by the end of a cold mountain day, I’m often too beaten up to finish a proper workout. And yet my body has changed anyway, in ways no gym could replicate. Your legs climb without asking. Your lungs stop noticing the thin air. Your hands harden into something else, and the cold no longer bites the way it used to. The mountains did this. Not a training block. Not some scientifically designed programme. Hundreds of ordinary days and thousands of kilometres of walking, carrying, kneeling, bending and twisting. You become something else. In every way.
The Greeks had a word for it: μεταμόρφωσις, metamorphosis. A change of form. I always thought it began on the inside and worked its way out. Up here, I’m learning it comes from both directions at once. The mountains get into you through the soles of your boots, and through the wind that cuts across your cheeks like a scythe.
All this time you think you’re carving the wood.
All along, the wood has been carving you.