08/17/2026
I was catching up on some wisdom before the Warwick Schiller 🐴 clinic in Maine this weekend.
Reading in my horse's stall, listening to her munch away, made me feel relaxed and content. There was nothing but us. Then this Lao Tzu quote fell across the pages.
"If you are depressed, you are living in the past. If you are anxious, you are living in the future. If you are at peace, you are living in the moment."
This summer has not gone how I planned: rehabbing a horse, an injury to myself, and navigating the world as an independent trainer travelling between barns and working multiple part time jobs. I've been full of anxiety about what the future holds, and what outcomes may happen. Scheduling my days full, with barely time to breathe, feeling like I am sprinting and then waiting for everything to catch up. I have been morose looking at the opportunities I missed, the friends and clients I've fallen out of touch with, and how life just generally "used to be."
I don't know what the future holds for me, my career, and my horse, and that is ok. I can miss the old relationships and memories, and be happy that I got to experience them. I can forgive myself for mistakes I've made, and mistakes I'm sure I'll make in the future. I am human, and this is life, and there is no set pathway.
As long as I can enjoy these quiet simple moments with a horse, that will always sooth my soul