04/07/2026
5 years ago today my son Mark was getting prepared to be laid to rest. I thank God every day for giving my other 3 sons as well as myself strength to keep going. I can say from experience the emptiness in my heart and sadness does not lighten up, it's an ongoing roller coaster of emotions that can swap up at any moment. Something simple as cologne smells, movies-Lion King on the top of that list,certain clothing and shoe brands-especially going to Burlington shopping,songs, emojis we always used, holidays I have to say are the absolute worst and hardest. Mark I miss your laugh, I miss your hugs, our texts, this list is never ending. You really learn to realize and appreciate so much more in life after losing someone extremely close to you. As a mother I have to say losing a child is by far the most absolutely horrifying experience I have ever in my entire life experienced.There are absolutely no words anyone can say that will make the sadness any better, death is so final can be here today gone tomorrow. Life can definitely change in the blink of an eye literally. I always used to say tomorrow is a new fresh day but since Mark's passing that definitely changed- Tomorrow is never promised, live life and enjoy each and every moment. Never put off to tomorrow what you could do today- just do it!! I did everything in my power to make this tragic happening as beautiful and peaceful for Mark as I could. Starting with discussing organ donor consents at Froedtert, to preparing for his funeral service arrangements and his burial going thru the options to say our last goodbyes to picking out his headstone and personalizing it. Mark loved music especially hooking up bass systems for everyone and loved cooking especially grilling that's why the music notes and cooking utensils are on his headstone. Mark I miss and love you so damn much, you will always hear Mom talking to you there's probably times you're up in heaven like OMG yep that's my Mom . I'm sending really big hugs to you in heaven Mark, I love you so much!!
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