
13/07/2025
For as many years as I can remember, when I was feeling uneasy I’d lay my head on Saige’s chest. Her existence is my favorite drug. And her existence rely’s on the beat of her heart and hearing that thing beat is the most soothing thing I’ve ever felt. It’s been a few months since I found out Saige has bone cancer. That little heart is somehow still beating. It’s reaching its end. I know we’re only working with days and not weeks now.
So many things have happened in the last few months. Some of the biggest moments of my life all happened at once. It’s been the craziest, most beautiful time of my life.
I found out Saige has bone cancer and I knew I had to buy her a home ASAP. That was the ultimate goal after all but now the timing was crucial. I was terrified she wouldn’t make it to our forever home. Bone cancer is not a friendly cancer, it moves fast.
During this time I was also preparing Javelin for his first ever National Mondioring competition. Our club was hosting National’s which meant we had a lot of work to do to set this event up. I didn’t know how many days Saige had left. I thought it could be any day so I was in a constant battle of not wanting to let my club down and not wanting to give up any of my time with Saige.
Here we are almost two months later, Saige made it to her new home, the dream home I always wanted. The home I was terrified she wouldn’t make it to and she’s had over a month to lay her mark on this place and truly enjoy every part of it. We placed 4th at National’s. Saige’s most favorite person, my mom, who came to watch nationals but didn’t know she’d be helping me move and saying goodbye to Saige but holy moly am I grateful she was here. Saige needed that grandma time and I truly needed the help.
When I found out Saige had cancer, I went into straight action mode. There was no time for sadness, no time for negative thoughts, only time for action. I never knew the end of her life would be some of the best times of our lives. God it hurts to think about that heart of hers stopping but damn it I don’t have any regrets. We made it, we did it, we lived it.