07/13/2025
For as many years as I can remember, when I was feeling uneasy Iād lay my head on Saigeās chest. Her existence is my favorite drug. And her existence relyās on the beat of her heart and hearing that thing beat is the most soothing thing Iāve ever felt. Itās been a few months since I found out Saige has bone cancer. That little heart is somehow still beating. Itās reaching its end. I know weāre only working with days and not weeks now.
So many things have happened in the last few months. Some of the biggest moments of my life all happened at once. Itās been the craziest, most beautiful time of my life.
I found out Saige has bone cancer and I knew I had to buy her a home ASAP. That was the ultimate goal after all but now the timing was crucial. I was terrified she wouldnāt make it to our forever home. Bone cancer is not a friendly cancer, it moves fast.
During this time I was also preparing Javelin for his first ever National Mondioring competition. Our club was hosting Nationalās which meant we had a lot of work to do to set this event up. I didnāt know how many days Saige had left. I thought it could be any day so I was in a constant battle of not wanting to let my club down and not wanting to give up any of my time with Saige.
Here we are almost two months later, Saige made it to her new home, the dream home I always wanted. The home I was terrified she wouldnāt make it to and sheās had over a month to lay her mark on this place and truly enjoy every part of it. We placed 4th at Nationalās. Saigeās most favorite person, my mom, who came to watch nationals but didnāt know sheād be helping me move and saying goodbye to Saige but holy moly am I grateful she was here. Saige needed that grandma time and I truly needed the help.
When I found out Saige had cancer, I went into straight action mode. There was no time for sadness, no time for negative thoughts, only time for action. I never knew the end of her life would be some of the best times of our lives. God it hurts to think about that heart of hers stopping but damn it I donāt have any regrets. We made it, we did it, we lived it.
