07/21/2023
It’s been a while since I’ve talked about how I’m doing. For my fellow warriors that have autoimmune diseases, this is for you. I never really cared enough about my body. I love clothes and having curls in my hair and dressing up. Yet with RD I can’t wear what I want. I can’t curl my hair because my hands hurt. I can’t….I can’t. It was my favorite phrase… Then an unexpected life event turned my world backwards. I wanted to figure out me. I wanted to figure out my purpose. I wanted to figure out what I wanted for my body. I wanted to dress up again. I wanted to curl my hair and do something I’ve always wanted to do but out of fear never did. Go light blonde beige Carmel hair… Yep, so why not now. Why not? Why live in fear and the I can’t language? I want and I will have become friends. I’m now willing to change things that were previously impossible for my body. Don’t get me wrong I still have pain, actually I’m in a current flare after starting a new med only one month in. My grip will improve. My hands will stop trembling. My wrists are gaining strength. With every hour I decide to fulfill those I wants and I will miracles happen. Also my faith is Jesus Holy Spirit Papa God has grounded me and I find myself getting anchored more in Him. The more I do the more I see the Rachel I was always supposed to be and the one He created me today for a purpose.