12/28/2021
I lost my jack on 12/23/21, i am so devastated!!! I thought the pain was easing up, but, today feels like i felt the night this happened! I cant stop crying, my heart is crushed, i cant sit still, i have to go for a walk or go out in the yard and just walk around crying!!...
Every morning i would go out and clean up after gigi and jack, but, now theres nothing to clean up!!😭 i started taking gigi on walks again, so, she doesnt go in the yard, its the little things that are breaking my heart!!! I HATE THIS SO MUCH!!!!! 😭😭🥺 when is this going to get better!! not sure how Gigi is, i cant tell, michael says he can tell shes missing Jack, i know he followed her everywhere!! The night before we took her to the vet she licked him on top of the head.....i didnt even get his ashes, which is killing me, i just couldnt afford the 800.00 dollar vet bill(which im still paying) and the 280.00 for his ashes, i read posts from people who say, they just brought thier baby home (the ashes), and how they have them in jewlery or urns, and im sitting here bawling my eyes out cause i couldnt bring my baby home!!!😭😭 i just wish i had someone here to talk with, michael said it makes him sad when i start, i try not to bother him with my crying or talking so i joined a pet loss group on here, it helps to get it out, then i read about them losing thier pets and i start bawling again..any way, thanks for listening, i just had to get that all out!!! Love you Jack boo boo!! RIP BABY!!!!💔❤❤❤❤
