12/06/2023
I’m absolutely heartbroken to share that I said good bye to Leroy today.
I don’t think I’ll ever be able to put into words just how wildly devastating it was to watch Leroy’s cognitive function deteriorate within days of finally recovering from his knee surgeries. So much of my life this last year was spent scheduling work around checking on him, driving all over to different specialty clinics, canceling vacations, missing close friends weddings, and really just holding onto that glimmer of hope that Leroy will get better.
Today our neurologist at UC Davis told us that Leroy’s sudden decline is most likely the result of a brain tumor…quality of life was no longer an unanswered question. Hearing those words was the closure that I needed. Finding the strength and courage to relieve him of his pain and suffering was undoubtedly the most difficult and loving decision that I could’ve made to honor the incredible dog that he is and how much he means to me.
We went to one last park together, he had a double double from In n Out, and when the neurologist walked back into the room he excitedly presented Leroy with a chocolate truffle. Leroy shriveled his face with disgust. I found myself laughing and apologizing to the veterinarians that my dog was so rude through the tears streaming down my face. To have such a beautiful and peaceful goodbye to the bestest boy filled with love, laughter, and maybe some ugly crying is something that I will never forget.
I have so much sympathy and love for those of you who are struggling with caring for your senior or health compromised pets. When our dogs are young and healthy: going on hikes, training together, playing at the park…we are so blissfully unaware to what we might endure or how quickly things can change. We tell ourselves that we would never let them suffer, but how blind we become when we are in the thick of it searching for answers and trying to make them better. Sometimes, they can get better…and other times they can not. My takeaway from this gutting experience is how important it is to cherish the time we have with them, as this might be the better we will once wish we had.
Love you, Leroy.
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