05/18/2026
Clara Oswald
IABCA WCCH TDCH White Elk Isabella Bird at Sundog RATS RATI TD-Rom TKP CGC PKD-N
7.11.2013 - 5.11.2026
I have dreaded this day for over 12 years.
I’ve loved stories my whole life, I’ve never wanted to rip out the last page. But today, for a week… I hate endings, I hate this ending. But the people we love, the people we loose, they are all stories. This is her story.
Once upon a time I dreamed of moving far away from home, I wanted to travel all over. I never pictured my companion but I should have seen her. I should have known from the second we met what her name was but even that is a fantastic part of her story. I left my new home and friends in Alaska and went back to Washington. A man I’d never met but had talked to for hours told me this was the one, the little girl that was mine. I was scared and afraid- this wasn’t the plan. But I knew it was right, it didn’t even feel like a choice. So I walked into their house, sat down in a room and a tiny, spunky ball of fluff launched at me in a single bound. I knew she was mine the instant I saw her. They didn’t even need to tell me.
The next morning we left, friends picked us up, we stayed with them and with no idea what to call this amazing, beautiful girl we flew home. Days went on, we spent our days together, she met friends and explored a wild world full of adventure and new things from the instant I took her, but we still couldn’t find her name.
One night she was running and playing with friends and a little girl stopped beside me, and told me her name was Clara because she was my companion, my impossible girl- just like the Doctor. This little girl just called her name and she came chasing after- loving the moment we all found ourselves in. And in that moment I think the pieces all fell into place.
Shortly after, out of nowhere she started naturally alerting, excelling at her training, moving seamlessly through so many lives and adventures. She was a pet, a service dog, a show dog, a sport dog, a lazy dog, an adventure dog…. She would not accept limitations or a single life- she had many. And she saved me in so many ways, so many moments.
She drove me to explore, to meet new people, try new things, to explore the world, to make a home, she taught Sara to love life, she helped strangers everywhere we went, raised puppies, calmed dogs who never wanted to get along with others. She was fearless and trusted me. And when our world shattered, when Sara got sick she was there. When our life crashed and shattered into pieces she was there, when I struggled with my health and when Sara needed to go, she was there.
When we started brining in puppies to train she raised them, taught them, loved them. She was with me every day at work for years. A constant companion, constant unwavering support and joy bolstered with curiosity and independence- I always whispered to her to be brave as she stood on cliffs, jumped into the sea, ran to chase the sky, vibrated with the roar of engines, flew through they sky, traveled to different worlds and even galaxies far far away. Then yet again she gave me a gift. Friends, friends I’ll have the rest of my life, communities and people that I know will always be there when I need them. And with that she also taught me to educate and advocate for her, her breed, my passion, working dogs, myself.
And when we were able to make it work, after we thought the time was long past we worked together and she gave me 8 amazing puppies. And then there was a little girl, a girl that made my heart sing, that was born while my companion slept beside me. The one she delivered all on her own- a gift. She has her own story but yet again my companion made me a promise with her name, with her love.
We moved through the world together after that- the three of us. Others came and went, but there was always us three. And as many know time hurts, memories can hurt, the days tied to those moments can be sharp. She was there every day, especially the days that ached. And time, as she would know, can change how we feel. How we grow. We started to move on, we healed, we bought a house, I realized that we were all happy, safe, and together, so I made a choice. I made a friend and we added someone to our family. And while they to have their own story I’m convinced she made the difference, she is why we finally found each other. And when that happened I fell in love. With her, with her daughter, with my partner, with myself, with the city, with our home. Time with the four of us together made the pain fade, made us happy, showed her new adventures, new life, a comfort and a calm we had never known.
In January I begged her to be brave. I did not whisper, I screamed it. I though I’d loose her. In a sterile office with space between us. And I demanded she stay. I willed it. And being my impossible girl she did the impossible. She stayed, she heeled against all odds. She should not have survived even hours but she survived days, weeks, months. Our family was crushed trying to save her, support her, hold on to her. And like she pulled through with her unique spark every time I even whispered she was brave and she stayed by my side. She gave us time to love her, spoil her, take one more walk, snuggle a few more days, sleep back to back in bed, play with her kids, celebrate, roll in the grass, let me see our home was a home and was safe, took away my fear and hesitation, played with toys, convinced me to give her one more treat, and made sure we had all of the supplies and tools needed to treat her, to treat someone else who was suffering like she was.
Then a week ago we had the BEST Mother’s Day. It was an anniversary for our family, of the loss of a friend, the birth of another, of our word shattering and being built up again. She gave me the gift of a day full of love with our family, a night out for dinner, and returning to her excitement, joy and story of all activities from my absence. A relaxing evening that was truly normal and beautiful in our home- we lost track of time and worry. The next morning I woke up rested for the first time in months. We had breakfast and did our daily meds. She slept by me, we talked about our losses and joys, how we were happy and home, how a friend was having puppies. Casey slept in but joined us, the four of us together. While I worked and she relaxed with him and Sass. She looked at me, paws up, head resting between like a million times before. I told her I loved her. I told her she was such a good girl and I was so proud of her. That she was doing so well. We smiled and she closed her eyes and went to sleep. She dreamed… racing, running - remembering….
Then my world ended. She howled as she looked at me. And I ran to her. And her story ended.
Love isn’t an emotion. Love is a promise. and the name you choose is like a promise you make. She made one hell of a promise - Clara, my impossible girl. You took me home the long way round. And while my heart is broken and I will miss you every day, and I don’t know what else I believe in I believe in you, I let you be brave. And I will be brave too, because you taught me to do that.
Run, run you clever girl, and remember until I find you again like I have before, like I always will.