07/27/2025
The day Roy Sanders sold the last of his sheep, his old dog sat at the fence and howled like something sacred had died.
It wasn’t a loud howl. Not one of those proud, sky-shaking things you’d hear in the mountains. No — it was a low, guttural sound, almost human. The kind of noise a man makes when he bends down to kiss his wife’s grave goodbye. You’d have to be quiet to hear it. Still your breath. Let the wind stop. Then it’d find you. And once it did, it’d settle in your bones.
That was in late October, somewhere between the first frost and the morning Roy had to admit his knees weren’t good enough to carry a full hay bale anymore. The sheep went to a fella two counties east who still had three sons working his land. Roy had none. Just a daughter who’d moved to Phoenix and called every second Sunday, right after church.
Roy was 78 and had been working that same patch of Tennessee dirt since Eisenhower. He was born on it, married on it, broke a collarbone on it, buried a brother under the east oak, and laid a dog or two to rest beside him. He never thought he’d outlive the sheep.
And yet, here he was, watching that last flatbed rattle away down the gravel road, the hooves clattering nervously against the metal floor.
Dust hung in the air like time had paused.
“Guess that’s that,” he said aloud, mostly for the benefit of Jasper.
Jasper didn’t move. Just kept staring down the road, ears perked and body stiff like a statue you’d find in front of a forgotten courthouse.
He wasn’t young anymore. A border collie mix with cloudy eyes and a white muzzle that used to be black. His hips clicked when he stood, and he needed help getting into the truck these days. But even at thirteen, that dog could still herd a dozen sheep with nothing but a glare and a twitch of the tail.
Now there was nothing left to herd but memories.
—
Roy hadn’t planned to end it like this. He always figured he’d go the way his daddy did — heart attack in the barn, pitchfork in one hand, feed bucket in the other, maybe even fall face-first into the hay with the smell of alfalfa in his nostrils. Quick and clean.
But farming had changed.
There weren’t no more boys from down the road eager to help toss hay for five bucks and a slice of pie. Most of them worked at Amazon now. Or sat in front of screens somewhere, clicking buttons that somehow made more money than milking five dozen ewes.
Roy tried to keep up. His daughter even bought him a new phone — one of those with no buttons, just a screen and attitude.
“You just talk to it, Dad,” she said. “Say what you need.”
But Roy didn’t like talking to things that didn’t talk back with a heartbeat. Machines shouldn’t listen better than people.
—
The days got quiet. Too quiet.
The barn, once a symphony of bleats and rustling straw, fell still. Dust motes danced in shafts of sun through the gaps in the old wood, and the only sounds were the soft shuffle of Roy’s boots and the sigh of Jasper lying by the door.
Roy started spending more time on the porch. One morning, he caught Jasper trotting out to the empty pasture, staring at the places where the flock used to gather.
The dog circled, sniffed the ground, paused, and looked back at Roy with something almost like confusion in his eyes. Then he trotted back, lay at Roy’s feet, and didn’t move for hours.
That night, Roy left the porch light on.
—
The first real snow came early that year.
Roy built a fire in the stove and warmed up some stew. He whistled, and Jasper came limping in, wet and cold, but proud.
“You still looking?” Roy asked.
Jasper didn’t answer, of course. But he laid his head on Roy’s boot and exhaled slow.
Roy turned on the radio — AM, still crackling with static like it had when he was a boy — and found a preacher shouting about the end times. He changed the dial until he hit an old Patsy Cline song and let it play.
He thought of Mary then. How she used to dance barefoot in the kitchen while the radio played. The way her laugh could fill the house and chase off the worst storms. She’d been gone nine years, but sometimes he swore he still heard her in the hall.
—
A week later, Roy found Jasper lying in the pasture. Not asleep. Not stiff either. Just… still.
He sat beside him, resting one hand on the dog’s side. There was no rise and fall. Just silence.
The snow had left patches of white against Jasper’s black coat. His eyes were open, but not in fear — in waiting, almost. Like he expected Roy to come get him.
Roy didn’t cry. Not then.
He just whispered, “You did your job, boy,” and carried him back to the barn.
He buried Jasper beside the oak, near the others.
Then he stood there for a long time, watching the wind move the grass, and felt something shift in his chest.
—
Two weeks passed.
A woman from the co-op called, asking if Roy would donate a few of his tools to the new agricultural program at the high school. He said yes, and even offered to drop them off. He put on his old denim jacket, the one with a faded American flag patch Mary had sewn on after Roy’s cousin came back from Vietnam.
He hadn’t been to town in months.
At the school, a lanky boy in Carhartt overalls came to help him unload.
“You used to raise sheep?” the boy asked.
“Most of my life.”
“You ever use one of these by hand?” he said, holding up a fence stretcher.
Roy chuckled. “That thing saved more fences than duct tape ever could.”
The boy smiled. “We’re trying to do it old-school. Learn it the hard way.”
Roy nodded. “That’s the right way.”
The ag teacher invited him in, showed him a room where kids were learning to weld, fix engines, raise crops.
And something stirred in Roy then. Not hope, exactly. But something quieter. Something sturdier.
The next week, he came back to talk to the class. Then again the week after.
He started wearing his hat again — the one with the feed store logo and sweat rings on the brim.
One morning, he caught himself whistling — a real tune this time — as he walked past the pasture.
It was still empty.
But now, when he looked out at it, he didn’t see what was gone.
He saw what had built him.
—
One day, while waiting in the truck for the school bell to ring, Roy reached across the seat out of habit — to pat Jasper’s head.
His hand hit nothing but worn vinyl.
He left it there anyway, and whispered, “Still got work to do, old friend.”
And if the kids saw an old man smile to no one in particular, none of them said a word.
They just listened.
Like something sacred had passed by.
—
Jasper didn’t live to see the pasture fill again — but Roy swore, when the tractor roared to life, he heard one last bark in the wind.
