11/18/2025
Today’s training didn’t go the way I originally planned — and the language I use to describe that matters just as much as the work itself.
When I say I felt flustered, I don’t mean incompetent.
When I say it was challenging, I don’t mean impossible.
When I say it was too soon for the plan, I don’t mean I failed.
Those distinctions matter.
The words we choose don’t just describe our experience — they shape it.
A lot of people jump straight to harsh self-labels when things get tough:
“I’m lazy.”
“I messed everything up.”
“I can’t handle this.”
But most of the time, the truth is something much simpler and far more workable:
“I’m adapting.”
“I need to pivot.”
“This wasn’t the right moment.”
That’s exactly what happened today.
Rather than force a session that wasn’t aligning, I shifted. It wasn’t an escape; it was a decision to keep momentum without burning myself — or the dogs — out. The adjustment kept the whole room moving forward instead of spiraling.
And even the walk afterward wasn’t an escape.
That language doesn’t serve me.
I call it decompression or recovery, because I always return to the work.
If I label it as running away, my mind will weaponize that against me later — and that’s how people talk themselves out of their own progress.
The words matter. They shape how you come back to the moment.
Here’s how the crew handled the shift:
Maximus — I don’t do much “place” work with him, so I wasn’t surprised he struggled. That’s not a flaw in him — that’s a gap in our reps, and we’ll fill it.
Blink — Managed Max’s chaos like a pro. Calm, steady, grounded energy. Exactly what I needed from him.
Oliver — Just a silly dude doing some heeling, happy to work and happy to move.
Blink (again) — His flow between positions is still capped. That’s been part of his personality since he arrived. Nothing “wrong” with it — it just means our next project is shifting away from place and heeling and into work that opens up those transitions.
Today wasn’t about things going wrong — it was about reading the moment, choosing better language, and adjusting without attacking myself for it.
Training isn’t just physical reps.
It’s emotional reps, too.
And the words you use to talk about your own experience matter more than you think.