09/02/2025
I HAVE REALIZED THIS PAST YR THAT WE CONTROL NOTHING AND NEVER WILL..NO MATTER HOW MUCH WE TRY TO DO IT ALL ALONE ,THERE IS NO WAY.. I HAD MANY PEOPLE THAT HAVE TALKED TO ME ABOUT THE BIG MAN UPSTAIRS BUT NEVER COULD EVEN BRING MYSELF TO BELIEVE ,FOR THIS IS THE WAY I WAS TAUGHT GROWING UP...I KEPT GOING THROUGH LIFE BLIND AS COULD BE. I HAD SO MANY GOOD THINGS HAPPEN THESE LAST FEW MONTHS FROM A STRANGER WHO WAS THERE TO FIX MY WELL..HE SAID GOD TELLS HIM WHAT JOB TO GO TO.. I WAS SO LOST WITH TRYING TO WORK AND CARE FOR 2 OTHERS 1 WITH CANCER AND MOM WITH 2 BRAIN SURGERIES PLUS MYSELF WITH MY CRAZY HEAD. I WAS AT THE END OF MY ROPE LITERALLY IF U KNOW WHAT I MEAN .I JUST LISTENED TO THIS MAN EVERYDAY HE TALKED ABOUT JESUS...HE TOLD ME THE MIRACLE THAT HAPPENED TO HIM AND I (BELIEVED )BECAUSE HE HAD WALKED THE SAME PATH I HAD, SO I KEPT LISTENING. I STARTED TO BELIEVE EVERYTHING HE WAS SAYING AND COULDNT IMAGINE NOT . HE TELLS ME GET A DEVOTIONAL SO I DO AND I READ IT EVERYDAY.HE TELLS ME GET A BIBLE BUT GUESS WHAT A FEW MONTHS PRIOR A CLIENT BOUGHT 1 FOR ME AND LEFT IT ON MY SHOP DOOR. ITS AS IF JESUS KNEW I WAS COMING TO HIM BEFORE I EVER KNEW..SO I STARTED CHURCH LAST WK AND I LOVE SEEING PEOPLE HAPPY..I HATED ALWAYS SEEING EVERYONE IN MY LIFE SO MAD AND THE HUSTLING OF PAYING BILLS AND DRS , FOOD, ETC THATS NOT WHAT JESUS WANTS FOR OUR LIFE...I FINALLY KNOW LIVING AND LOVING LIFE R SO DIF..TO LIVE LIFE IS JUST STRUGGLING EVERYDAY..BUT TO LOVE LIFE IS TO FIND JESUS CHRIST...I REALIZED HE CALLS EACH OF US BUT ITS UP TO US IF WE WANT HEAR HIM.. THANK U SO MUCH TO EVERYONE WHO HAS BEEN PRAYING FOR ME ALL THESE YRS AND TRYING TO SHOW ME... 1 FRIEND SAID TO ME THE OTHER WK..LISA, I TRIED TALKING TO U EVERYDAY BUT YOU NEVER LISTENED . YOUR HEART WAS HARD..AND SHE CRIED FOR ME AND PRAYED FOR ME BUT I STILL WAS IN THE STRUGGLE OF TRYING TO DO EVERYTHING MYSELF BECAUSE IF U WERE BROUGHT UP LIKE I WAS ,TO TRUST SOMEONE IS TO SHOW WEAKNESS AND NO WAY WAS I A WEAK WOMAN...SHE THEN TOLD ME IT TAKES MANY TO CARE FOR A GARDEN, AND THE SAME TO TURN YOUR HEART INTO FLESH AGAIN TAKES MULTIPLE . I WOULD HAVE NEVER UNDERSTOOD A YR AGO..I ALWAYS THOUGHT OF MYSELF AS HAVING A HUGE HEART :))))NOW I AM STRONGER 10 FOLD..WITH HIM WALKING WITH ME AND BRINGING OTHERS TO KEEP SHOWING ME... I PRAY WHOMEVER IS LIKE I WAS DONT BE AFRAID,DONT JUDGE, OPEN YOUR HEART, AND ASK HIM FOR HELP....LOOK WHAT HES DONE FOR ME AND I WAS A LOST CAUSE ...HE WILL ANSWER WHEN WE R READY TO HEAR.......