05/15/2023
The most precious and wonderful reason to why I sadly have to quit the job I love!!
This Motherās Day is extra special for the Smith Familyš
Im not sure who needs to hear this, but I promised the Good Lord if he gave me this opportunity I would share my story.
As many know I only wanted two kids and I got them. I was done and content but Austin always wanted another one. I was a hard NO. Then Kroy started getting close to kindergarten age and it broke my heart that Iād have an empty house. So, I told Austin okay we can start for another baby. A year goes by and nothing. So then I start really tracking, another year goes by and nothing. I start to get a tad worried. So I call my OB. Everything on paper and ultrasound look great. So we go do a HSG and they see a growth. So have my first surgery. I have polyps and endometriosis. We cut and burn and started trying again. Nothing. So I call a fertility clinic. They get me in, ultrasounds bloodwork etc everything is perfect on paper. Iām so confused how everything can be āperfectā yet not work: So we go for our second surgery āexploratoryā and find out itās actually border line stage 3 endometriosis which is pretty severe. They burn it and cut more polyps out. Then I get put on birth control for 2 months. Which in itself is heartbreaking when you want a baby. This whole time im asking God like why at such a young age do I have all this? Why is everyone getting pregnant so easily and I canāt? I had to hold onto something so I held onto my faith. After the two months is up I get to start my medicated cycles with trigger shots and letrozole. My body does what it needs to I have great follicles and they tell us itās promising. 3 rounds, 3 heartbreaks. Nothing is happening. So we move to IUI. Everything looked wonderful on my end and Austinās end. Medicated and trigger shot and itās iui time. It fails. So they suggest a 3rd surgery. I told them okay. We go and polyps have come back again and now my uterus is infected. I am heartbroken and asking God why so long of heartbreak and wonder when everyone around me is getting pregnant. When is it going to be me? But I held on and kept praying, knowing he has a plan for me and itās not in my timing. Now itās IVF time. Everyone knows how expensive it is and that just adds to the scary. Lots of meds and lots of shots get us to egg retrieval. Leading up they saw 11 good follicles. I wake up from anesthesia and they tell me they only got 6. Which I was super upset about but had hope. Following day they call and tell me 3 didnāt make it. But 3 did fertilize. Burst into tears and had a complete panic attack and almost mad at God to why I canāt ever get good news. But then asked him to help me. Help me hold on to my faith and lean on him. A few days go by and I get the call. We only have 2 embryos. People my age normally get between 10-20. I got 2. I was terrified. So then my doctor says I need a 4th surgery before the transfer. I am just begging God to be with me and these two little embryos the whole time. Every day, multiple times a day. Surgery goes great and itās about a month of more shots and more medsā¦.. now itās transfer timeā¦..
God showed out, God showed up, and I couldnāt have made it through the worst almost 3 years of my life without him. He has blessed me with this little baby. We are happy to announce that we are expecting our miracle baby in January 2024ā¤ļø
This whole story is just to say he may put you through the worst storms of your life, but he will always be with you through them, and see you crawl out of them. My God is so Good!!
Prayers for a healthy baby and pregnancy would be appreciated!š
If any other women or mommas are going through infertility I understand your heart, Happy Mothers Day to yāall too! Your time is coming.
