05/01/2026
It was like Zeus all Over Again Monday afternoon in Dr. Gentry's office. She told me, Thor has a tumor at the stem of his brain. In a few seconds my heart shattered. I couldn't believe it!! He is running playing, eating, and wanting attention. Acting normal. So hard to fathom. There is no treatment. It is a heartbreaking, waiting game.... Waiting for his behavior to change......Waiting for seizures.... Waiting for him to stop eating.... Waiting for the quality of his life to change to where I have to make a heart wrenching call. I'll do it because I love him so much and that will be my final act of kindness easing his suffering. I am unsure of how long he possibly has. Honestly, I don't want to know. Because if I have a time frame, I will watch to calendar losing time with him. Time with him is all that matters. Right now, he sleeps beside me on Skye's little bed. I didn't realize how deeply I love him til this past Monday. Maria and Willow are deeply attached also. Telling them ripped my heart out. While I was gone on a therapy visit with Stormy, Willow gave Thor her pink dinosaur blanket. She covered him up with it wanting him to have something that smelled like her and Maria. That touched my heart. Yesterday, Willow asked me if Thor was dying? What do you say? Not right this second was all I could think of. Writing this, I am still struggling to process his condition. Monday, I was in the bargaining and anger phase. Coming home from the visit, I felt so much anger.... I was overwhelmed.... I felt like I do with these dogs is a major exercise in futility. I bawled and bawled and bawled. What is the point? Thor is eight.... He should live to ten, eleven, twelve, fourteen like Titan. I promised Thor, I wouldn't let him down. I'd give him the very best life humanely possible for however long or short that is. Titan is doing well. He is lively and plays in the evening doing his buck and run. The cat enjoys biting him on the tail as he drinks water. Skye tries joining them. She looks hurt when I make her stay out of the kitchen. Last time we were at the vet, Titan got his pup cup. I got a Mango Smoothie from Dutch Bros. In Egypt about all I drank was Mango juice. I love the smoothie. Makes me think of Egypt. Titan does as well. He always almost gets his tongue through the opening in my cup. We go back in June to have his heart murmur checked. Hopefully, that will come out good. Stormy still wears his cone. We see Dr. Wielgus at four. I am so hoping his eye is good to go. It "feels" like it will never end. His allergies are killing him. Even getting Apoquel daily doesn't seem to help as much as it used to. My allergies are killing me also. Skye is happy and healthy and good with life. Although, she wants to eat the Black Silkie hen that showed up the other day in the front yard. Currently, it stays in a crate at night and when the dogs are in the backyard. Right now, the hen is roaming around the backyard. Animals always find their way here. There is a Siamese looking, long-haired cat that has been around for a month, maybe. I hope all my incredible friends have a stupendous day!!!! Love, Linda
