02/23/2026
I am sure there are many people who have wondered why and how I just suddenly stopped training and breeding dogs the way I did. I had been going back and forth for a good while about it and I now know it was the Holy Spirit convicting my heart.
There are many reasons I chose to quit, but the main reason, is God, Jesus, my Risen Lord and Savior. God is a jealous God, he makes this very clear in his very first commandment.
Matthew 22:37-40
New Living Translation
37 Jesus replied, “‘You must love the Lord your God with all your heart, all your soul, and all your mind.’38 This is the first and greatest commandment. 39 A second is equally important: ‘Love your neighbor as yourself.’40 The entire law and all the demands of the prophets are based on these two commandments.”
He does not share with other gods and idols.
Exodus 34:14
New Living Translation
14 You must worship no other gods, for the Lord, whose very name is Jealous, is a God who is jealous about his relationship with you.
All of my life dogs have been a huge part of my identity. No, actually , they were my identity. They were my life.. everything revolved around them.
I never realized it in the moment, how I was prioritizing them first in every part of my life. The dog clubs and training ruling my weekends and my life. But the biggest factor was where I had placed them in my heart. Above my children and my relationship with them greatly suffered and caused great hurt because of this.
Many times however, the dogs brought me great stress and at times I failed to even provide them with the proper love and care that they deserved. But
my dogs brought ME a sense of security and a “faithful” love… a love that I had been seeking to find my whole life.
I had experienced so much rejection and abuse, as a young child and all throughout my adult life I was trying to fill a void with things that could not bring me what I actually needed. When I started seeking Jesus, because, there came a point in my life, when I recognized that everything I was doing to try and fill that void I had in my heart, was not only bringing death to me but I was filling it with everything except what I truly needed.
The unwavering love of Jesus. The only love that heals the wounds of past trauma, betrayal and hurt. When I started this journey he began to show me the idolatry I was walking in.
He made it so very clear that I was worshipping my dogs. He started convicting my heart.
So, I did what any faithful follower of Christ Jesus would do and I chose HIM.
I died of my flesh and I picked up my cross to follow HIM.
Sometimes God will ask you to let the things or even people you love go for HIM. He also examines and tests your heart. Are you even willing to let them or whatever it is you are putting above HIM go? By giving him a true heartfelt yes; just as Abraham did when he put his full trust and faith in the Lord, when he was asked to sacrifice his son Issac.
God was never going to allow him to sacrifice him, it was a test, but was he even willing to trust God with the very thing he loved?
Surrendering him fully to the Lord, he believed that he would provide a sacrificial Ram.
I will always choose my Father in Heaven. There will never be anything or anyone I will ever put before him. He is the way, and the truth and the life and no one comes to the Father except through Him.
He is the One True God and my heart is and will always be with Jesus.
1 John 5:20-21
New Living Translation
20 And we know that the Son of God has come, and he has given us understanding so that we can know the true God. And now we live in fellowship with the true God because we live in fellowship with his Son, Jesus Christ. He is the only true God, and he is eternal life.
21 Dear children, keep away from anything that might take God’s place in your hearts.