18/02/2026
I canāt believe this is the first Ramadan Iāll be entering without you, my child. I lost you on December 28, 2025. You would have turned six this August 13, 2026āyour birthday, the same as your papaās. This will also be the first year Iāll be celebrating your fatherās birthday without you. š©
Even during your last day, you tried your best to drink your medicine and food for me, before you decided to let go. You still waited for me, until the very end you were the best boy ever.
I want to allow myself this moment to mourn you, because ever since you were gone, there has been an emptiness inside me that nothing can fill. I speak your name with a tightness in my throat. The house, our lives; will never be the same without you.
I still look at every corner of the house where you used to rest, play, and wait for me. Iāve stopped blaming myself after seeking the truth, and I now know it was truly the doctorās fault. Still, I wish I had been with you more. But this is qadr, and perhaps it was already your time. Please know that you were the best thing that ever happened to me.
No cat could ever replace you. You will always be my favoriteāmy son, my greatest and purest love. No one will ever be as handsome as you. You will forever be cherished, loved, and mourned.
Alhamdulillah, Niklaus was buried in the Muslim way, within 24 hours, and laid to rest at the Blue Mosque. The guard was kind enough to allow it, so I can visit you whenever my heart longs for you. I used to worry so much about where I would bury you when the time came, thatās why I dreamed of having a house of our own soon. But now that youāre gone, that dream feels so quiet.
Still, I find comfort knowing you are with Allah now. I imagine you having all the royal canine and chicken you want. And one day, in shÄā AllÄh, we will meet again in Jannah. Please ask Allah for us when you are there, my love.
I miss you every single day, Klaus. Not a day passes that I donāt grieve for you. You will always be the love of my life, this will never change. You were the best baby ever given to me, and I am endlessly grateful that I was loved by you for five beautiful years. š©