28/08/2025
It’s an old pic but one I’m proud of….its the first time I had the confidence to go out with friends after separation!
A separation that left me battling even more with my mental health…. It’s been 3 years of some very deep thoughts…thoughts that I thought I had dealt with, that I thought I would never have again!
After a particularly painful day, I realised I needed help…I was ready to find me again…. I just had to wait 12 months for a therapist who dealt with complex PTSD. I started the journey of healing my mind in December 2024 and I’m now immensely proud to say that yesterday I was discharged from therapy.
I’ve been in therapy on and off for 19 years….nothing has worked before, so what makes me think this time will work?
Well, for a start, I’ve been working with a therapist who has listened to me, genuinely cared about my journey, supported me and made me feel safe. I’ve also been surrounded by some fantastic people who have supported me, loved me unconditionally when I couldn’t love myself and literally dragged me out of the house!
I know that I’m going to have bad days, meltdowns, strops and that I’m going to have hoops to jump through, but I know that it is ok!
I am still learning to rest and do self care compassionately….and know that it is good to say no to people when I feel I need to be alone.
I now have the tools I need and have the reminders set, in order to access the tools I have learnt to protect myself from trauma, from my own thoughts and from toxic people who may try and enter my life. I also know that I need to give myself permission to rest and do self care.
My journey is far from over, but now I feel that I am able to continue with compassion and empathy for myself.
I’m not going to apologise for the long post, but if you’ve got this far then thankyou and well done!
Love and light ###
