27/11/2024
Having dogs can feel isolating sometimes. It's a lifelong commitment and as they age, you can experience not only anticipatory grief but also carer's fatigue. Not everyone thrives when they're caring for someone and you shouldn't feel guilty when you're tired and need a break. Take a break.
My heart is split into two because I left my parents back home in Slovakia and having a sensitive and senior dog doesn't go well with travelling.
My parents are not young anymore and neither is my dog. And now I've learnt to feel grateful for what I have it's harder living away from one or the other.
We had a great time away and did lots and lots of walking, some of which Fly would still enjoy might I add, so I was still thinking about him a lot of the time.
And then he decided to become unwell and I thought we would be coming back to book the visit to let him go. Well done to me to decide, at 15 years old, to leave him for the longest time he's ever been without me.
Even though he was with people he loves he still found it hard to be away from me. So was it severe anxiety 😳 or was he genuinely unwell with norovirus perhaps ? He didn't need the vet in the end and they wouldn't have been able to answer this for sure so now I'm just happy that he's better than he's been for a while and was very grateful to be home. I'm glad he realised what he has and how lucky he is 😂😂😂.
I'm still worried about his health and every cough and momentary limp sends me into a frenzy of over analysing every symptom. (I'm still me and still deep in anticipatory grief) But I can manage it better and can stay present in the good days.
So I guess my point is, you're entitled to feel all of your feelings. They make you, you! You're still your dog's best friend, their treasure and you can still have adventures together. ( Or apart. You need to meet your needs, too.) New experiences keep their brain functioning well and all the supplements you give them are still worth it.
Your old dog will have more bad days but that doesn't make the good days less meaningful.
Spend time doing what you love so you can cherish your dog despite how tiring caring for a senior can be.