23/04/2026
Some honest reflections in this crazy journey- l canāt escape the gut feeling that something isnāt quite right with this little fella.
I hoped it was hormones, adolescence, or just the dynamic between the boys. But the longer itās gone on, the harder itās been to ignore that this feels like something more.
Whilst both dogs have been continually assessed and nothing obvious has come back from a veterinary point of view, thereās just too many pieces that donāt quite fit.
He sleeps 20ā22 hours a day.
He shakes violently in the mornings.
He always seems cold.
He canāt tolerate touch unless itās completely on his terms, usually when heās already heightened.
Heās not coping in the big wide world and is extremely noise sensitive.
Any change to routine completely overwhelms him.
He wasnāt always like this, as a pup despite a rocky start in life, he was happy go lucky and down for whatever. A lot of what we are seeing has only come out in the last year and slowly progressed as he has matured.
Most of all⦠heās just lost his spark.
And when you know your dog inside out, those ālittle thingsā arenāt little at all. It only takes a day or two to realise something isnāt right.
He wasnāt your typical puppy either ā over curved spine, big round belly, dome-shaped head, bulging eyes⦠all the things that made me want to scoop him up and give him the best chance.
Now it feels like one thing after another, and weāre left trying to piece together a puzzle that doesnāt quite make sense.
Weāve got further investigations lined up, alongside looking into physio and hydrotherapy, and hopefully we can start getting some answers.
He was once such a happy, carefree little bean. I just want to find a way to get him feeling like that again.
It really does make you question nature vs nurture sometimes. God knows who his dad was but heās got a lot to answer for.