Earth Song Mama

06/05/2026

No one really knows what goes on for a mother, in her inner world.

As she walks through the world, baby strapped to her back - is she weary of carrying the weight? Is she savouring this moment of being able to carry her child? Is she so immersed in her life as a mother that she does not even think about it?

Does she want to rest? Walk alone? Eat chocolate without having to share? All of the above?

Does she have people to share this journey with? When her young child is suffering, does she suffer to?

I turn 37 today, thick in the life of “mother”. One of my children is small (2) and beginning to say “no help”; she is at the stage of wanting to do things on her own.

My other child is big, almost 8. She is making new friends every week, riding her bike, and finding ways to live and love despite a life of adversity. She spent the last week in the hospital, a place that she has frequented a lot in the last year and a half.

After 2 years of extreme challenge, I have been sleeping again. I have had a chance to experience baths alone, sing alone, go to a few appointments alone… I even danced alone recently. I went out with friends without my children. For these things I am so grateful.

I feel I’ve done well this year- on the healing front, on the mothering front, on the “adapting to reality as best I can” front. I couldn’t have done so without those who have helped me - my partner who returned to my life this year, my family, and a few close friends.

These days I am doing my best to envision things going well rather than dwell on the things I fear. Everyday this is a practice. May this be a year of hope, resolution, and love. 💕🕊️

13/02/2026

Island Week 3+4 🏝️

The last two weeks of my time in the Bahamas were pure magic. These are some of the special moments we had together. We enjoyed so much time in nature, with family, and experiencing the beauty of the island (Nassau).

This trip overall was honestly everything our little family needed to heal and unite after many tough moments in our journey in recent years.

At the end of September I set an intention to shift my life in a way that would bring more joy and vitality back into my body after a few years of intense hardships. I was really struggling after walking through fire after fire these past 2 years.

I prayed a lot about my situation, did some fumbling in the dark, and began to forge a new path forward for myself. This trip was part of this journey.

My life is a work in progress (whose isn’t?) and I’m grateful to have stumbled upon inspiring people in my journey who remind me how much we can influence our own reality; we can always redesign aspects of our lives that are/aren’t working for us.

Thank you to the sun, sand, love, and nourishment of my month away. I’ve been home one week now and I feel I have more stamina for the challenges in my life and for caring for my girls as a solo parent here in Canada.

Please pray for my little family as we continue to build a unique life that works for us. And if you are navigating challenges in your life, I pray you too find creative ways to keep yourself nourished and vital in this wild world!

Happy love day (tomorrow) everyone 🙏💜

28/01/2026

Island Week 2 🏝️

Last week we went to a small island called Spanish Wells. We drove around in a golf cart and made friends with locals. We played in perfect turquoise coloured waters. We hopped on a ferry to another island and did some sight seeing. It was beautiful.

It has felt like years since I have had space like this- space to breathe and simplify my mental space.

Raising a daughter with an invisible and very serious illness - it has been hard. To even begin to try to process some of the tough things that happened in the last 7 years… it can sometimes be a lot. But I know over time things will soften, integrate, and make sense in the greater story of our lives.

I almost didn’t come on this trip. It felt complicated - leaving my daughter with her dad and grandparents for longer than I ever have, leaving my house which is still up for sale, leaving my dad who is sick, and I’m also dealing with lawyers as my co-parenting agreements are changing. I took a leap of faith and In the end it has been the perfect time to be away.

2 weeks of ocean swimming has offered me more than 2 years of therapy. Being a family unit and simply enjoying each other’s company and being outside most of everyday on a quiet island- it was an amazing week.

It’s not all easy, but I’m grateful for the good things that are coming into my life these days. 9 days left in the Bahamas and I’m going to do my best to make the most of each moment. 🌞🏝️💜🦋

15/01/2026

Island Week 1 🏝️

Feeling my way
Water flowing between sandy toes
Tiny brown baby legs running across a sandy shore
Wild ocean, wild hair
Palm trees🌴
Orange and pink flowers falling to the sidewalks
Too many Stinky cars in the city
Quiet room where we sleep
Sound of gentle rain on tin ☔️
Morning Sun in the window
Fingers beading
Voice singing
Space to be 🦋

07/01/2026

Thank you 🙏❤️‍🩹🦋💜

There’s so much more to say than I can fit in one post. Every person who I crossed paths with this year offered me a gift; a little bit of light in a dark time.

There are other OTC families online who I’ve watched from afar and felt so grateful for too, because when we share our stories we feel less alone.

Thank you all.







(Hamilton)








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And so many more!!!🙏🙏🙏

16/11/2025

Hi all- my beautiful homestead is for sale. I’ve put so much love into this place, and have adored living here. My oldest daughter needs a fair bit of medical care in Hamilton which is quite far from me so I’ve decided to move.

Please send to anyone looking for a homestead, it’s a really special property! 💜

323135 DURHAM Road E, Durham, Ontario N0G1R0

27/10/2025

So grateful for a nourishing few weeks together as a family. God always has a plan greater than any of us could ever understand. This beautiful man and I have a love so deep that it always, in the end, breaks down the barriers in between us… Even after some really hard moments In our journey. Our sweet babe will always be deeply loved by us both. I love this picture of our family as it reminds me that Love, especially when you seek it, always wins. 💗 🐻

22/10/2025

30/09/2025

4 photos of Juniper from September 2025, and two pictures from March 2025, right before her diagnosis of .

The last two pictures are from the week before she was admitted to hospital after 6 months of near-daily puking, and 2 years of insane meltdowns and strange neurological symptoms.

The protein she was eating was not being properly processed in her liver, was releasing ammonia in her body, and poisoning her brain and organs. Many kids with her disorder don’t get a diagnosis before they lose their life to this brutal illness.

Juniper lost most of her abilities and body functioning in April, ended up presenting with a seizure disorder due to the length of time her body had been processing high ammonia. We are extremely lucky she pulled through and has rehabilitated to the degree that she has.

If you work in health care or care to help children like her, please advocate for ammonia blood testing for any children showing neurological issues, especially if these issues are accompanied by puking. It is a simple and affordable test.

Our doctor initially told us she needed therapy and that her puking was likely anxiety related. I was so frustrated when I went to therapy sessions with her last fall. They were trying to get her to express her feelings and I could see her looking at me like- “seriously mom?”

This girl has been telling me her feelings and shown a high degree of emotional intelligence since she could talk. Nothing against therapy, but that really wasn’t it for her.

When she ate protein (which we didn’t know was the trigger) she would end up screaming for over 3 hours at a time, was extremely aggressive, could not sleep soundly, would have these episodes acting very strange, and was regularly throwing up.

I don’t feel comfy posting the worst videos of the state she was in when she landed in the ICU but you can see in the last two pictures how skinny and sickly she became.

Grateful for our girl and that she has come so far in the last few months. Sending love to all the other families of OTC kids out there.

We love you Juniper.