12/30/2025
Ranching is this…
Yesterday the cold snap finally surrendered after just about an entire month. The sun was shining, happiness was inevitable. I spent the day walking through the cows, giving scratches, pulling the kids on GT’s and prepping the barn for our upcoming calving season. Joy, light, gratitude. It filled my cup yesterday. That was yesterday.
Today, I went out and did chores like every other morning. Still warm out. Still gratitude. My last bale before parking the tractor was for my breds & 2nd calvers. As I crested the hill, my nightmare flashed before my eyes. A back leg straight in the air. It didn’t matter how fast I drove, how upset I was. She was dead. Hadn’t been for very long though, and the thought of ‘what if I would have fed them first’ plagues my mind. One of my favourite 3 yr olds that was heavy in calf.
An immense level of defeat will linger with me all day, without question. And what was excitement for the upcoming calving season yesterday, turned to dread today.
Tomorrow will be a new day.