18/08/2019
I have contemplated writing this post for a while now...asking myself what is my motive, what do I want to achieve.....and I think it's because many only get to see one small part of the racing industry...the winners. Most of the winners are more often the 'professional trainers' and syndicates or big owners....many of who never get to know their horses on an emotional level...in fact after the race often no emotion is shown...it's just another day at the office....for the 8 or 9 winners every meeting there are another 90++ smaller trainers and owners who are just grateful their horse got around safe and they live in hope to maybe finish closer next time.
I got into training when my Dad died...I wanted to give my Mum something to be able to look forward to, to get some enjoyment from and as a way of bringing the family together. Sadly now I'm feeling this was never meant to be...the fork in the road is infront of me and I'm not sure if I can continue down this path any longer. For those of you who don't know I have tragically lost two horses in a month. The first was a beautiful horse who came into my stable skin and bones...in terrible shape and completely shut down. Long story short the owner owed me money and agreed to sign him over to me....I loved this horse and when I found the reason why he couldn't run was because of chips in his fetlocks, I went ahead with surgery.....anything that would give him a chance...even if it was just to be my riding horse. Sadly 3 months later and the joints never recovered....the kindest yet most heartbreaking thing to do was say goodbye........😭💔
Then a month later my dear Mum's horse, her pride an joy, a horse who she'd been so looking forward to seeing race, had a freak accident in the paddock......he could not be saved. 😭💔 This has broken my poor 90+ Mum's heart and mine........I still cry every night....and every time I walk into my stable and see his empty box........
So if you're still reading..thankyou....the reason why I wanted to share all of this is not for sympathy or pity but because the public only usually sees one side of racing......they don't see the love we have for our horses....the sacrifices we make......the tears we shed.......the heartache we feel........all because we care so much for these magnificent beings. The public don't see the retired horses we pay for to live their lives out in the paddock because their owners don't want them and they can't be rehomed...... It's not all about the money or winning to some of us.........there is another side to racing ...those who truly love their horses 🐎