28/10/2023
I have cried a million tears for you
I wish you didnt break my heart
But all i have left are lonely dreams
Now that we've had to part
I hold your heart inside of me
With all that was left unsaid
Im reading the unfinished story of our lives
Quietly in my head
All that i have left of you
Is many photos on my wall
But i guess thats better than having
No memories of you at all ππ
Somewhere . . . in time's own space, there must be some sweet, pastured place.
Where creeks sing on - and tall trees grow, some paradise where horses go.
I can't fathom that this is happened, devastating doesn't begin to describe it. I've tried and tried to find the words, but couldn't even begin to write, it's taken me days.
I keep telling myself over and over that it's just a bad dream and you'll show up for your pudding in the morning, but the paddock is empty of your beautiful face and I'm just filled with grief ππ
How much loss does one have to endure, when will enough be enough. There's no little girl on earth or in heaven that needed you more than me. I can't bring myself to speak of you, my throat closes in and the tears just flow. Why did they need you elsewhere so soon, I will never know.
I can't bear this pain inside my chest or the emptiness your absence brings. You were amazing, so incredibly talented and I wish the World had the opportunity to see you through my eyes. God I just wish I didn't have to write this, I can barely see, it'll take me hours I know to even hit the "post". Still in denial, hoping you'll just show up one-day and wonder at all the fuss π
Big Mumma, you were so very special and I'm so honoured and privileged that I got to be your person for the short time you graced this earth. I wish I'd chosen some very different paths, and that you had the opportunities you deserved. While I may have taught you a thing or two, I think you showed me the most. Thankyou, for the good, the bad and in between, thankyou for everything, I'm so grateful for you.
I'm so sorry we'll never get the chance to raise that little Reno baby.
I love you, I hope you knew how much, until the day we meet again I can wish that old Peppy, Rythym and Cupid keep you company as you gallop those lush green fields, no doubt in the lead ππ
I wish I could hug that dear old neck one last time and say "Thankyou for the ride", again.
πππ Rest in peace dear girl, I miss you so much πππ€π€π€