
16/07/2025
It’s always fascinating & heart wrenching when my heart asks my brain to imagine what our life would look like today with both of our boys by our side. Where we would be if we hadn’t endured intense grief together. What our goals and future plans would entail if Zeke were still here. How different (or nonexistent) my anxious thoughts would be if I didn’t constantly fear that something was brewing inside my beautiful Beezer. Whether I would worry less that we were cursed or beholden to bad luck and poor health.
In some ways it feels like Zeke was here yesterday, and in others it feels like we’ve lived whole lives since we lost him. As we look forward and plan our future, it’s hard not to look back and wonder what other hand we could have been dealt and how our days would differ.
I miss you, my best boy. Forever & always 🤍