18/10/2025
I unfortunately lost Zero on August 5th. It was no one’s fault, unfortunately dogs can get sick just as humans can. I can’t even begin to express how special and precious my Little Nightmare was to me. She was born the day before I lost Rivers and I really thought adding her to my family was fate. I named her after my favorite movie, her being born right before Halloween and me picking her up right before Christmas just seemed like the perfect chance to finally name a dog Zero. I didn’t know just 2 short years later I would be saying goodbye to her. Zero was sort of my healer puppy but she was so much more than just a way to mend my broken heart. This little pup crawled into the deepest crevices of my being and made her home. She saw me at my worst and still jumped up on my lap to show me love. So many things I can say about her, how she was such a long awaited puppy, I always wanted a puppy out of Pratt (my all time favorite male Toller) and I was thrilled to finally have one of his daughters. She was my first puppy champion, finishing in 6 shows under 9 months of age, she was my first dog to earn a RATS and had a master pass under her belt too. She had such a bright future both in performance and conformation events, I wish I could’ve watched her grow to her potential and shine in the ring like I knew she could. She did so much in her 2 years, more than most of my dogs did in 4. She was everything I wanted in a Toller, smart, sweet, sassy, full of personality and s***k. I told her breeder I wanted a confident puppy and man did she give me one. I was so excited to add her to my breeding program and keep a puppy from her in the future.
I’ll miss her warming my feet at night, giving my little love nips because kissing just wasn’t enough, her racing Chip around the house going as fast as she can, her bark when people where at the door, her snuggles in the morning and as we watched TV together. I’ll miss it all, I’ll miss her. She was a fantastic little dog and healed a heart I didn’t know if could be mended. I’m losing a huge piece of me by letting her go, but the choice wasn’t mine. She was ready to go and she let me know. My dad always said the last act of love we can show them is to let them go when the time comes. My heart shattered as she took her last breath but she’s at peace now and that’s what’s more important.
To Zero’s breeder I thank you for entrusting me with this most wonderful dog. My time may have been short with her but I wouldn’t trade a second of what time I had with her and the many memories we made. I know I’m not alone in my grieving as she had a huge impact on everyone in my family and many of my close friends.
Zero, Zee, Zee Zee, Zebra, Little Nightmare you have no idea what you meant to me and how much you impacted my life and healed my heart. You were such a wonderful dog and I’m honored I got 2 great years with her, I would give any to have had more but I’ll try not to grieve the time I lost and celebrate the time I had with you. You can rest my Little Nightmare have fun playing with Rivers, Hershey, and Jamaica. Rest easy baby girl, I love and miss you!💖❤️
Rest in Peace Zero - NOHS Group Placing CH Susqudilla’s Haunting Christmas with Foxvale RN CGC RATS FITB (10/18/22-8/5/25)
