15/07/2025
This one cuts deep.
Marley was such an outgoing, happy, full of energy puppy. He lived for everything and everyone. He was kind and caring, goofy but serious when it came to his fetch or his people. He was a protector and big brother, instilling his confidence and his mischief into his brother Finn. From boating to hanging out on a lazy Sunday, he was always ready to bring a smile to your face. He was truly a soul dog. He knew me better than anyone and I knew him. We were ingrained in each other, connected at a level beyond that of just human and dog. He was a learner, a guardian, a therapist, a best friend, a motivator, my biggest distraction, so smart, big and loud, yet soft and gentle; the most perfect and beautiful light.
I've been putting off making this post because the pain is deep. It's in everything, everywhere, and all consuming. The little reminders throughout the house, your toys, your fur, your supplements, your food, the places you stood, the morning rituals, the nighttime snuggle sessions, the sadness now in Finn's eyes; it's a drowning silence.
Heartbroken doesn't even begin to cover the loss I feel. A whole part of my soul has died and it was so unexpected as he was acting his normal, happy self most of the day. It happened all so suddenly, within minutes. I'll spare y'all the gut wrenching details but I don't believe he was in pain. My dear Marley had his second and final bleed, and passed Tuesday, July 1st in my arms.
That's the thing with hemangiosarcoma; time. It's never really yours, your hours, your minutes, right down to your damn seconds can be ripped from you despite everything.
I held him that morning like I always did. I held him through the thunder midday. We played fetch in the yard and he was happy, always happy. He was a curious pup, always wanting to do whatever I was doing. And God, he loved people, especially little ones. He was a protector, an old soul, caring deeply about his humans and his siblings. He was a teacher and discipliner to his brother and sisters and gosh, he taught us lessons. He was a light amongst the darkest storms and a fighter. He knew you, what you were feeling and somehow always made it better.
The loss of someone who spent almost the last 7 years of your life within feet of you and never judged you once, accepted all the good, bad, ugly with unconditional love, is overwhelming. He meant more to me than anyone or anything. I see you in everything buddy, every little thing.
"I'd steal the moon from the stars, just to get to where you are. But it seems these days, you're so damn far away.
And I know everything has changed."
Rest easy buddy. I know Maggie and Mabell are with you and you're all still here with us. We love you and are so grateful you were ours, Mar Mar. I'll see you at the bridge and will hold you in my heart the rest of my days. Our adventures aren't over. Love you, my big ol Marley Dog.
To everyone that has loved my Marley, know that the feeling was mutual. So many have followed his story and checked in over the past month and a day since his diagnosis. Just know, he lived and breathed for his human friends and his furry friends alike and y'all hold a special place in our hearts. He will always be our sunshine 🌞🌈🐕