13/05/2022
Godivaās visited me today...
It was that last one Iāll get with her in person. Itās time for her to go. She told me that while she was here. She has her good moments. But sheās struggling.
She struggles with getting her breath.
She struggles with orientation.
Her head is tipped at all times. Yes, I know there is a medical term for what it is, but that doesnāt matter right now.
She canāt hear and she really canāt see, except for shadows.
She gets startled at movement around her. Itās frightening. She can calm herself with her Beagle sense of smell. But, it happens again and again. Itās a big part of her daily existence now.
She has to p*e a lot. That sucks.
She didnāt have one of her coughing fits that she often has due to her collapsing trachea while she was visiting me today. I think she held that off because she was wrapped up in all of the moments that were about her today. She knows. She was reveling in it.
She knows the gift of letting go, way better than we humans do. In our connection, she let me know... sheās so grateful for that understanding.
Iāve always been so proud of Godiva. I loved Godiva from the beginning and through our travels to Iowa and New York and all the times she spent with me at my Passiflora house.
She knows it. Dogs are that way. You can shower them with all the things, but knowing how someone feels about you when you commit to their well being... that shines over everything.
She got to go on a road trip with her Dad today. He loves her. So very much.
He did everything for this dog to make sure she had a good life.
And she has had the most amazing life.
This is breaking his heart.
In little tiny pieces.
He invested in me so that she could have the best life ever.
He took that and gave Godiva the best family life a dog could ever hope for, and here we are 14 years later.
Sheās so very grateful that even though the heartbreak of losing her is unfathomable...
He loves her so very much that he can do this for her.
His investment in her isnāt money, or time or effort...
The connection is way beyond all of that.
Letting go of Godiva is so hard and yet such an act of love.
We donāt always get the dog we want, we get the dog we need, and sometimes that comes when itās time to let go, knowing that all that your put in will come back in her riding around on your shoulder in spirit, helping you make the tough choices to put your life back together again.
She wants you to have the life you gave her.
Just like Zelda.. the message she left me, is true for letting Godiva go too.
I told her I loved her more than anything in the world every day of her life. She let me know when it was time for her to go, it was time for me to do that for myself.
Godivaās message to you Mitchell is the same. After all, you know Zelda was her dog mentor from the beginning...
Godiva knows you love her more than words can describe, and she wants you to know itās ok, youāve got this and in letting her go, sheāll be here for you to make all the many right choices you need to do for you every single day, from here on out.