04/09/2017
Life Reflections
I have never ever had an experienced like the one I just went through this weekend… I know God gave me an opportunity to experience his Love though and though. A chance to just revitalize who I am supposed to be, a chance to be the Man who he called me out to be. And it all comes on the anniversary of 3 years ago on the death of my own Son…
My life has been anything but easy, but somehow God has placed the right people at the right time in my life, yet has allowed me to make my own mistakes, and I have made many of them, which has been the sins of my life, and now as I repent from them, he still loved me enough to forgive me for those sins.
I had a lot of heart felt conversations this weekend, which brought me to my knees last night and to a revelation this morning. Over the years I felt Gods presence and he has given me instructions through his word but only then I would reject his guidance because of my own earthly desires and especially the fear of being alone. Because I stand at this conviction one more time, I am being led to follow his word and not my earthly desires.
My own Son died being a servant of the Lord, trusting in him every day, and as I stand here today it is Gods testimony that Jesse blood was not of that in vain, yet he was an instrument of God all the way through his last breath of earthly life. He was a hero of hero’s. And with every person who knew Jesse and who did not know him, God sent his out pouring love to everyone who knows his story, mainly to hear the faith of my son’s wife, Rebecca who has called upon the Lord over and over, her testimony about Gods love, she should bring any person to their knees.
Since then or even before Jesse’s death, I too lost some of my faith in the Lord, but today I stand here only to be renewed by God and him giving me a new strength to stand strong in his ways, I profess my renewed strength in God to stand strong on his words and wisdom, as coming to Idaho has giving me a new meaning and renewed my faith, I am a proud Dad, and I can’t wait to see my son in heaven, and I want to make him proud of me when I come home and join forces with him in heaven… I shall follow my Lords instruction going forward and I may fall a time a two more but I will continue to stand tall, my God will give me the strength to bear whatever is coming my way…
Coping with Loss has a new meaning with me and I am ready to help those heal to the next level in life that they may stand and rejoice in the Lord with me.
Prov. 3:5,6
Trust in the Lord your God with all of your heart, lean not on your own understanding, but have faith in him who make your paths straight…
Rick Sperry