08/29/2025
Vulnerability time
I just want to say thank you all again for the kindness you’ve all shown me. This mite mess has thrown me into a severe depression, and I’m fighting every day to keep from drowning in it. It came at the worst possible time, too. Spoodtopia was THRIVING. I had such a drive to create that I’d get up at 4:00am just to build enclosures and sets before work, because I loved doing it so much. It very much felt like all of the sudden, everything crashed down, and I’m still trying to pick up all the pieces.
My Dr prescribed me medication for the panic attacks this has all caused. Not only has it affected my spiders, whom I care VERY deeply for, but also my income. Bills haven’t stopped. I scrounged for school supplies. For baseball fees for my son. For meals. It’s affected my sleep. The website will be shut down until i can pay the bill. Its affected my productivity and energy at work. My drive to create - something I’ve always loved to do. My friendships, as I’ve been so busy trying to clean up this mess that I’ve lost touch with people. My family life. It’s affected everything.
It’s not a light or funny situation. At least, not right now.
I guess I just want to say that I hope that one day that drive and spark for this beautiful little corner of space that I’ve built comes back. And that your kindness goes a VERY long way, to me. I appreciate all of you so so much for being here through all of this. It’s been really hard the last few weeks, and sometimes I feel like things will never go back to “normal.”
To those who’ve helped me, I truly cannot thank you enough. There are quite literally no words that I can say that will express the amount of gratitude I have for you.
I need one more favor from you guys: if you know of a decent PRO BONO lawyer that is licensed to practice in MO that handles product liability cases, please let me know their contact info! (Asking for a friend, of course)