06/01/2026
Big moves are scary.
For the last several months, I've gotten very comfortable only having to worry about my little family. No overhead, no inventory, no rent, no employees depending on me, and no giant insurance bills showing up at the worst possible time. Life became fairly simple. I trained dogs, worked with wonderful clients, spent time with my family, and built a business that fit the life I wanted.
Then I signed a lease.
As I sat there looking over the paperwork, I could feel that familiar little voice creeping into the back of my mind asking, "What if this doesn't work out?" The funny thing is that every time I've asked myself that question throughout my life, I've figured it out. Every single time. Experience should probably make that voice quieter by now, but apparently that's not how this works.
When I first started training dogs full time, there was always a safety net in the back of my mind. If something went wrong, I could always go back to Glow (if youre new here I owned a tanning salon for over 21 years) Over time, though, I realized that wasn't really true. Not because I couldn't go back, but because I wouldn't want to. The reality was that I was keeping it alive mostly to keep someone else employed, and then cancer had a way of making a lot of things painfully clear.
Cancer strips away a lot of the noise. It has a way of showing you who you are to other people, who shows up when things get hard, who values you as a person, and who values you for what you can provide. Some lessons are expensive. Some come with scars. Either way, they leave an impression, and when I came out the other side of that experience, I found myself looking at my life, my business, and my time very differently.
Now the questions are different. Will people in this area want group classes? Will they connect with the way I teach? I've never marketed heavily in my local community. Most of my business has grown through referrals, relationships, and word of mouth. The movement is exciting, but stepping into something new always comes with uncertainty.
What I do is also a little different from what most people picture when they think about dog training. Truthfully, I don't really train dogs. I teach people how to build a life with their dogs. The sit, down, stay, and recall stuff absolutely matters, but it's never been the thing that fascinates me most. What fascinates me is the relationship that develops when people learn to truly understand the animal sharing their home.
I look at Ryu and what he's brought to my life, and I know the relationship I have with him is different from the relationships I had with dogs years ago. Not because he's better than those dogs, but because I've changed. Somewhere along the way, I stopped viewing dogs as projects, accomplishments, or sport partners and started seeing them as companions, friends, and partners in life. That shift changed everything for me, and it's what I hope people find when they work with me.
I don't want people to walk away with a perfectly trained dog. I want them to walk away with a relationship that makes the training almost feel secondary. The kind of relationship where your dog becomes part of the story you're building instead of just another responsibility you're managing.
Still, if I'm being completely transparent, this whole thing is terrifying. Signing that lease felt a lot like standing on the edge of a diving board, knowing full well the water is probably fine but wishing someone else would go first.
But every meaningful thing I've built in my life started with a moment that scared me.
So I signed the lease anyway.