06/26/2025
This Empty Space
There’s boxes now where your bed used to be and this empty space inside of me. This hole in my heart, I’m not sure, can be filled. It hurts so bad it feels like my heart is being tilled.
Without you here, things aren’t the same, I cry every time I hear your name. When I’m looking at old pictures of you, back when things were good.
There was no barking when I heard the thunder, the night we put you down… there’s nobody here to attack this evil vacuum that always made you frown. I know I yelled at you and told you to shut up, and for that, I feel so bad, I know at times I messed up. I tried to be the best dog mom. The mom that you deserved…
I would never vacuum again, if you would just come back. I’d even let you snore and fart, then drag in all the mud… I’d scrub the carpet for an hour in exchange for just a few minutes of your time… that would be enough for one more belly rub, and a scratch behind your ear.
I know that is impossible, but if I could have just one more day, there are so many things that I could do, that I could say. I’d remind you that you’re my favorite dog. I’d put you in my bed to hog. I’d give you extra of all your favorite treats.
We’d dance to all our favorite songs. I’d sing to you, and we’d dress up; we’d take a few selfies like we always did. Man, I’d place the HIGHEST BID if I could buy you back from God, just to fill this empty space…..
But I guess I’m being selfish because you’re in a better place. You’re over the rainbow and clear up past outer space! There’s so many things there for you to do , yet I know you miss me too.
You're out of pain , young and free, and here , on earth there’s too much rain . There’s a storm in my heart right now. But in heaven it’s always sunny , I’ll meet you there honey, I promise I’ll be there too. I know God will wrap you up tight in a big, soft pair of angel wings. He will let you sleep right by his feet until that day that we meet.
In loving memory of my English Bulldog, Athena.
By, Brandy Lynn Judd
