05/24/2025
To my brave and beautiful fuzzy soulmate,
You were a wild, tender mysteryāa creature of lightning shakes and thunderous snores, of moonlight paws padding down the hallway just to check on me. You carried the heart of a wolf and the soul of a poet who only speaks in licks and sighs.
I saw you. I still see you!! The way you tilted your head at the wind, as if listening to some secret I could not hear. The way you pressed your weight against my legs when the world felt too heavy, like you were holding me together without a sound. You pretended not to notice when I cry, but you always brought me your favourite toy after, as if to say, "Here, this fixes things."
You did not have to be good. Though you were so, so, so, so good. You never had to earn your place. You carved it into the bedrock of my life the moment you chose me, and now I canāt remember what the silence felt like before you.
Be proud of your scars, your goofy underbite, the way you snored like a chainsaw but woke up delicately, as if afraid to break the morning. Be so fu***ng proud of the way you loved me - without maps, without conditions, as if devotion is as simple as breathing.
The world moves too fast for creatures like you. They donāt see the way you memorized the exact sound of my keys in the door, or how you sighed when dreams took you somewhere far away. But I did. I saw it all!
Five years ago time stole the weight of your head from my lap, the warmth of your paw on my knee. But Snoozer, I need you to listen closely, my wild-hearted friend: You were never just a chapter in my life. You are the ink!
And long after the last page was written, I still listen for you ā in the creak of the floorboards, in the rustle of leaves, in every quiet place where love outlives bones.
If I could have just one more day with you, I wouldnāt say a word. I would just listen to the sound of your paws padding softly across the floor, your gentle breaths, your quiet whimpersāmemorizing each one until they became the only song my heart could ever sing.
I would watch you. I would trace the curve of your ears, the way your nose twitched when you slept, the way your eyes lit up when you saw meāuntil every detail was etched into my mind, so I could see you perfectly, even in the dark.
I would run my fingers through your fur, over and over, feeling the warmth of your body, the rhythm of your heartbeat, until the memory of your touch became a comfort I could cling to when the silence felt too heavy.
I would breathe you inā the scent of sun-warmed fur, of grass and homeāuntil it lingered in the air long after you were gone, a ghost of you I could still reach for.
But more than anything, if I had one more day with you, I would hold you. I would hold you so close, so tight, hoping that if I just held on a little longer...
You wouldnāt have to go.
Yes, if I had just one more day with you, I would beg. I would beg so hard.
That the world would be kind enough to let you stay.