06/11/2025
The lil cream male gained his wings at 10:24 pm. tonight.
What a lot of people don't know about a quality breeder is the heartache and extreme lack of sleep and the hours of worry and work it involves raising a litter of puppies. If done correctly, your every breath is those babies and mammas. From homemade food for nursing mammas 3-4 times a day. The weighing of the babies every 12 hours to chart their growth. The sanitizing, changing of pads, etc. I'm taking the mamas out to go potty at all times of the day and night. The getting up every 2 hours to check on babies and mammas.
All of this is for the love of the families these babies will go to.
My pugs mean everything to me, and I believe it shows in each and every baby that I help grow and thrive.
But damn it, everything I do is everything I know how and every precaution I take, and I still lose a little life. It hurts, and it hurts so damn bad. Why do I do it, people ask? It surely isn't the money because if I break it down by the hour I'm losing money.
But i do it so that it can bring joy, laughter, and happiness to a family or individual for its lifetime.
Because when those little eyes can see my face for the 1st time and they get all excited and wag those tails and give the sweetest kisses. They take all the pain and hurt away for that brief moment, and I love that!!
I will continue this journey as long as I can, but today was a hard one, it truly was.
Goodnight, sweet baby boy, I tried i truly did..... Please forgive me for failing you! :(