02/06/2026
Yesterday, when my baby’s heart stopped, it was the first time I had ever experienced something like that. In that moment, I felt completely broken. I didn’t know what to do. I felt helpless in a way I had never felt before. Life seemed to stop for me. I was alone at home with no one else around.
Sadly, my puppy was never diagnosed with distemper. They only told me it was a respiratory infection. I adopted him from a shelter on April 17th. On April 21st, we went to the vet because he kept vomiting, wouldn’t eat, and wouldn’t drink water. He got better for a while, but then green discharge started coming from his nose, and the discharge from his eyes never went away. When I first noticed the eye discharge, I told the vet and was advised to use eye drops. Later, the nasal discharge started, and we went back to the vet. Looking back, these were all symptoms of distemper.
It has been three weeks, and I keep wondering if my son could have been saved if the correct diagnosis had been made sooner. That is only my thought, though. People say there is no cure for distemper, so I don’t know.
Chiko, your mommy loved you so much. Life somehow continues, even after losing you. My little boy is now beneath the earth, yet I am still able to eat, drink, and keep going. It is such a strange feeling. Life truly can bring anything.
I wish we could have shared many long and beautiful years together. You were the little child of my home, and that is why your mommy loved you in a special way. ❤️
I hope you are peaceful now. I hope you are happy. You will always remain in your mommy’s heart. Today, I wanted to open your grave and hold you in my arms over and over again. Mommy was waiting to watch you grow up. Soon, I was going to buy a car and take you on many adventures.
I hate going to bed at night without you. Tık tık tık stairs and jump onto my bed mummy I am here give me a hug and lets sleep 😴 very peaceful nights together it was.
My beautiful boy, rest peacefully. 😢