22/11/2023
The post I never wanted to write…
Tuesday 21 November 2023 at 8:24am, my favourite hello, became my hardest goodbye as my lion hearted Kruiza left us 🐾
On the 5th of October, we were told he had a ruptured splenic tumour and had anywhere from hours to a week (or maybe two) at best… we honestly didn’t think he’d see out the night, but Kruiza defied that and stayed with us just shy of 7 weeks.
Born 4 September 2011 and passing 21 November 2023, Kruiza blessed me, and everyone his life touched, with 12 years, 2 months, 2 weeks and 2 days of life.
Diagnosed with a heart condition at 18 months, we were told he’d be lucky to get to 6 and he blessed us by living till over 12. Our OG just loved living, adored his family, LOVED people… and sometimes (and a lot more than he let on), the Grungle.
I have no words for how much of me he took with him, but the current pain and emptiness without him, is overwhelming. There is a silver lining though… and that’s in the joy of knowing how many lives he touched, and the extraordinary number of people who loved him too… I want to thank each and every one of you for that.
Thank you for sharing his life with me.
Thank you for sharing my dressing him up (and his dressing me down) with me.
Thank you for sharing the laughs with me.
Thank you for sharing his disdain, and the eye rolls and the sarcasm with me.
Thank you for waiting patiently for me, when there was gaps and silence due to having kids (what was I thinking?!?!), and moving and the crazy that is life now…
Most of all, Thank you for being there when we came back….
It was hard to post, knowing we were on very borrowed time, but I tried to share a bit of it, even though I just wanted to soak it all in rather than capture it.
Funnily enough, all those years ago when I first started Kruiza’s page, my mind went to this and how I’d be able to post about it… Did I have it in me? The hesitation to start his page became huge, I couldn’t imagine how I’d be able to write this post and share the grief of losing Kruiza… my heart dog… but my desire to show his amazing personality overtook my fears, and here we are. I still don’t have the words, and it’ll take me umpteen attempts to compose and then post this but I’ll do my best to get this up within day/s of his passing.
NB Since his terminal prognosis, although there were a few posts, the desire to enjoy him was stronger, so although there wasn’t a lot shared here, I do have photos and videos… Now we’re all in the know about his prognosis, if you’ll allow me, I’d like to keep posting for a bit, to share his last few weeks, from the perspective that we all knew they were his last… there was still humour and special moments in those weeks, and I’d love to share that with you all, from his perspective, if I may… 💞
